2008-09-29

what do you do?


The big question is "What do you do?"

What do you do when you miss somebody so much?
What do you do when suddenly the life line is removed?
What do you do when the reason for your happiness is no more with you?
What do you do when your happy factor gives so much pain?
What do you do when you are not able to bear the pain?
What do you do when you want to inflict physical pain just to remove the emotional pain?
What do you do when the one thing you want in this life is not interested in being a part of you?
Bloody fucking hell, what the heck would one do?!

The big question is "What can you do?"

2008-09-20

will the world conspire for me?


Have heard/read the most famous statement in one of the Paulo Coelho's book 'The Alchemist' and the statement goes thus - "When you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true."

Well isn't this great? If this can happen always then it is great.

Now the question is can it happen to me?! Ever?! Well, a good question. Guess the answer is obvious. Yes, it will. Actually, it can! It will provided that I am as desperate as I can get. Am I as desperate? Well, yes and no! I am desperate to go back in time but I am also angry at the things are right now. So, right now, my head is filled with clashes between the past & the present.

With clash at its peak & worst, how can i think of a future? More over, how can I be desperate about my future?! Interesting, isn't it?

Well, if I can somehow settle my thoughts & focus on what I need, may be! Just may be, I can get this Coelho's thesis come true. I can somehow get the whole world to conspire to fulfill my wish! But for that I need make some changes... in me! I need to focus & get the best out of me! For which, I hope GOD has given me the strengths to tackle my inner fears & over come them. If HE has not then HE better give me! :-)

2008-09-15

...it pains!

When things don't go right,
when people you trust don't respond
the way we want;

When things don't go right,
when times seem as difficult
as it can get;

When things don't go right,
when past seem very painful
though it was pleasure then;

...is it bad to expect the end of world?!

2008-09-10

....it hurts a lot more!!

What is the most difficult thing in the whole life?!
The most simplest thing is the most difficult thing. Confusing right?! Thats life, I guess.

The most difficult stuff is to give/provide what the whole relationship is based on. For instance, friendship is based on trust & support, the most difficult thing is to give friend the unconditional support & trust. Similarly, Love is based on space & time given to each other and the most difficult thing is to give love that much need space.

In both case, it is very very painful to give without gaining much! I struggling and in near psychological-trauma trying to give. But, guess what, I have decided to give. Let us see if I can get back what I almost lost - Friendship & Love.

2008-09-07

.... it hurts

Some times... the life turns interesting.. it takes all that it gave and it gives back all that you don't want... it shows the path which you want to forget.. it opens the doors that you never knew existed.. Well thats life in short..

What you think cannot happen will happen.. what you think should not happen will definitely happen.. what you want to happen will evade you like none before..

I am thinking of doing something next weekend and I am sure the thing called life will definitely give an interesting twist the entire show.

Let us see how Swami handles this & me...